As a child, freedom seemed to me to be a land of dreams – though sadly, this idea lasted for only a few years. Then, as a teenager, I thought freedom was a place I could reach both within myself and in the world outside – a land of opportunities nourished by all the drugs and alcohol I was taking and the art I was looking at. I was sure these were the golden keys to this land of freedom.
I ended up in Hell. But for twenty years I yearned, somehow, to remain a teenager – not in a state of childhood innocence, but in the existential angst, the essential pain of the teenager.
Then one day I awoke. I understood how wrong I had been.
Freedom was not, in fact, ‘another word for nothing left to lose’. Freedom is but a vibe. Nothing special, at the end of the day. Not even an illusion! It is just a way to be and to believe – or not. A tool that can help transform these beliefs into convictions that will lead to some things you will do – or not – and into some other things you will accept – or not.
And for this, yes, for sure, you have to work, to fight. Nothing big in life comes for free.
But along this road made of bricks, traps, and tracks, something has always been my constant companion, and that thing was music. What-ever state I was in, music was always there to make me think I was right – or wrong!
In a word, freedom is an apprenticeship.
Here is a short list of songs I’ve collected along the way, old and new, but made with blue.
Words and playlist by Thomas Erber, consultant, writer, curator and the founder of ’Le Cabinet de Curiosites de Thomas Erber’.
The 4th edition of ’Le Cabinet’ is planned to be held in November 2013 at the Kitsuné store and the Nomad Hotel in New York.